la bandeja de entrada.

[autolysis]

wip.

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[hgb]

I'm going out of my fucking mind

[autolysis]

what happened this time?

[hgb]

What's that supposed to mean?

[autolysis]

that you're already out of your mind
what's wrong

[hgb]

Probably

[ It takes him a little longer for the next part. ]

Do you ever wonder what it would've been like for us if we'd actually wanted to fuck back then?

[autolysis]

[ Well that's a weird thing to ask out of the blue. ]

Like if we had stayed together?
Not really

[hgb]

Yeah

[ Of course she doesn't, Ash, she has someone, she's happy. ]

Okay, sorry

[autolysis]

Why are you sorry?
Do you?
If you want the entire truth, I used to
I don't think I would have minded, you know?
Are you okay? Do you need me to come over?

[hgb]

No, come on, don't freak out
Just been on my mind lately
Maybe would've made things easier

[autolysis]

What happened?
You don't ever talk about when we were together like you miss it

[hgb]

Why would you? Ever, I mean
You wouldn't have minded, fuck

[autolysis]

because despite what you tell yourself you're not a bad guy

[hgb]

That's not the point
Forget it

[autolysis]

Absolutely not
You text me out of the blue saying you're going out of your mind
Then you ask me if I've ever wondered what it'd be like if we stayed together
And then when I tell you, you act like it's the end of the world
No
I will NOT forget it
What the fuck is going on???

[hgb]

Alright, calm down

[hgb]

[ Several minutes later: attachment.jpg. ]

[autolysis]

????

[hgb]

Dahlia

[autolysis]

What about her?

[ It only takes her a couple of seconds to figure — well, something out. ]

Does she not want the lessons anymore?

[hgb]

She hasn't said anything like that but maybe
I was with someone and before you get pissed at me I didn't mention it because it's nothing serious
But Dahlia called while I was with her and didn't seem to want to have much to do with me today after that

[autolysis]

Well if she hasn't said it there's no reason to get upset

[hgb]

Yeah, you're probably right
Thanks

[autolysis]

So how did you get that picture of her

[hgb]

When she wasn't looking

[autolysis]

Bullshit she doesn't mean anything to you as anything other than a student
That's why you're upset, isn't it

[ She will absolutely @ you. ]